all the memories of how you’ve treated me ever since we broke up make me literally sick. I ended up losing over 20lbs this fall/winter cuz I couldn’t eat, I was that upset. I didn’t deserve to get treated the way you treated me. I didn’t deserve any of it. A day hasn’t gone by where I haven’t wondered if you ever even remotely cared about me, or if it was just a lie. I know you don’t care about me anymore of like me at all anymore, but if you really loved me like u used to say you wouldnt have said all those mean things. Idc if you think this is stupid either. I have no control over my emotions anymore. You can’t hurt me anymore. You’ve already hurt me as much as possible. And yet I still love you and want you to be happy even if it’s not with me…